Are You Going to Have Any More? My stomach was suddenly in knots. My brain started swirling through all of the horrible things we had been through just to get one. I was just bragging about my perfect 2 year old toddler and showed off her picture. Then she asked so innocently and with loadsContinue reading “Are You Going to Have Any More?”
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This is Your Brain When Trying to Conceive
This is Your Brain When Trying to Conceive….It is such an extreme mind fuck. Anyone else feel like your brain was constantly running in overdrive when trying to conceive? This was me multiplied by 10 years plus. Talk about living with depression. It was this extreme torture every single month when it just didn’t happen.Continue reading “This is Your Brain When Trying to Conceive”
Every Time I Wipe
Every single time I wipe, I have to look. I am terrified to find blood, I am terrified to lose this baby. I started writing this months ago, Nothing has changed. I’m 32 weeks pregnant, I still look every single time. We have a healthy singleton, But think about the twin we lost EVERY SINGLEContinue reading “Every Time I Wipe”
The 5 Week Scare
**I am currently 14 weeks with a singleton** As many of you know, I had a miscarriage last year. It was devastating and I still think about it every single day. I woke up on Monday morning at 4am with blood on the sheets. I ran to the bathroom and started bawling my eyes out.Continue reading “The 5 Week Scare”
Our 2nd FET Attempt
After being on Lupron for the past month, my RE started me on my new FET protocol right away. I would not have to wait for my period to come and to take birth control this time. This time we went right into putting the 3 Estrogen patches on (switching out every other day) PLUSContinue reading “Our 2nd FET Attempt”
I Got Fucking SHINGLES
SHINGLES. WHAT THE FUUUUUCK. A couple of months after my laparoscopic myomectomy, I started to feel “rashy”. I don’t know how else to explain it. I had this really gross cluster of small blisters between my right fingers. I thought it was just eczema at first or maybe some sort of athletes foot fungus onContinue reading “I Got Fucking SHINGLES”
The Miscarriage
Traumatic. I still cannot believe this happened to us. It is so so hard to write about this, but I know that sharing my story will help break the silence. I am not alone. We are not alone. But I still feel so alone. Millions of women have miscarriages. No one talks about it. IContinue reading “The Miscarriage”
Our First 2 Week Wait (2WW)
Warning: My story is sad I was instructed to stay in bed for 3 days. I was so cozy and comfortable in our room. I watched a lot of TV and read a lot. On the 3rd day I felt INTENSE cramping. I was moaning and breathing heavily. I thought for sure I was aboutContinue reading “Our First 2 Week Wait (2WW)”
