Sometimes the Clouds Come Back

Sometimes the Clouds Come Back – Find the one who will always be that hand on your shoulder, the one who deeply cares, the one who encourages you and fights for you and fights with you. Whoever that is, lean on them. Cry with them. Be angry with them. But most importantly, LISTEN TO THEM.Continue reading “Sometimes the Clouds Come Back”

Pure Joy

Pure Joy – I took one look at my sweet baby nephew, and I felt PURE JOY! It was the most incredible feeling. There he was, this precious little baby, and I FELT HAPPY. I FELT CALM! I FELT SO IN LOVE! And then I felt sad that I couldn’t have this with my baby.Continue reading “Pure Joy”

Are You Going to Have Any More?

Are You Going to Have Any More? My stomach was suddenly in knots. My brain started swirling through all of the horrible things we had been through just to get one. I was just bragging about my perfect 2 year old toddler and showed off her picture. Then she asked so innocently and with loadsContinue reading “Are You Going to Have Any More?”

This is Your Brain When Trying to Conceive

This is Your Brain When Trying to Conceive….It is such an extreme mind fuck. Anyone else feel like your brain was constantly running in overdrive when trying to conceive? This was me multiplied by 10 years plus. Talk about living with depression. It was this extreme torture every single month when it just didn’t happen.Continue reading “This is Your Brain When Trying to Conceive”

Ovarian Stimulation Phase

Ovarian Stimulation Phase… What a strange feeling this was. Everyone talks about the injections and being scared of the needles. I had NO PROBLEMS AT ALL with this. I did most of the shots myself while my husband stood by my side. I liked being in control and knowing exactly when I would feel theContinue reading “Ovarian Stimulation Phase”

What to Expect During IVF

What to Expect During IVF…. Overwhelming much?! You can read more about our first official office visit here. It was IVF time! I so clearly remember hearing everything the nurse was saying, but then panicking…it went right in one ear and out of the other. I remember nodding my head and saying “yes, ok, uhContinue reading “What to Expect During IVF”

Find Your Escape, Find Your Distraction

Find Your Escape, Find Your Distraction… It’s easy to get wrapped up in the negativity of all things IVF. It’s easy to think that the universe is against you in every way. For me, it seemed like it was one bad thing after another. We were on this insane emotional rollercoaster. We couldn’t catch aContinue reading “Find Your Escape, Find Your Distraction”

I’ve Heard It All

I’ve Heard It All…. AND MORE! I could keep adding and adding, but I think you get the picture. It is NOT OK to say these things to someone who does not have a child. It is NOT OK to ask these questions. It doesn’t matter if someone you know just got married, or hadContinue reading “I’ve Heard It All”

I Know Someone Who…

I Know Someone Who…. I can’t even tell you how many times during our IVF Journey I’ve heard people tell me that their friend of a friend of a friend who tried to get pregnant for a few months went on vacation….. and then they came home and found out they were pregnant! WOW! It’sContinue reading “I Know Someone Who…”

Searching All Night

Anyone else? I would search and search all night long trying to find other IVF stories. I wanted to know it all. Did it work? How did it feel? What is going to happen to me next? I needed more information. There wasn’t enough out there, so I started my IVF Journey Blog, titled, “IVF?WTF!”Continue reading “Searching All Night”