HOW Our Embryos Were Frozen – WHY We Were Not Able To Fly Them Home

It never really crossed my mind to ask HOW our embryos were frozen. It was just part of the deal. Go through IVF, have your embryos genetically tested, your embryos are frozen and stored, then do a frozen embryo transfer when you’re ready. It wasn’t until we moved home to NY that I NEEDED thisContinue reading “HOW Our Embryos Were Frozen – WHY We Were Not Able To Fly Them Home”

Our Frozen Embryos Must Stay in Kansas City

Remember my last post? You know, the one where we were so excited to fly our frozen embryos home to NY? Well, it didn’t pan out as we had hoped. We were ready to make the payment to Cryostork, and pick the date of their flight, when everything stopped. I received a call from theContinue reading “Our Frozen Embryos Must Stay in Kansas City”

Flying Our Frozen Embryos Home

Flying Our Frozen Embryos Home – After much consideration, we have decided to fly our 3 beautiful frozen embryos from Kansas City, home to Buffalo, NY! We have been going back and forth… IF we decide to do another transfer, would we be flying to Kansas City together for the transfer, or find a newContinue reading “Flying Our Frozen Embryos Home”

Sometimes the Clouds Come Back

Sometimes the Clouds Come Back – Find the one who will always be that hand on your shoulder, the one who deeply cares, the one who encourages you and fights for you and fights with you. Whoever that is, lean on them. Cry with them. Be angry with them. But most importantly, LISTEN TO THEM.Continue reading “Sometimes the Clouds Come Back”

Pure Joy

Pure Joy – I took one look at my sweet baby nephew, and I felt PURE JOY! It was the most incredible feeling. There he was, this precious little baby, and I FELT HAPPY. I FELT CALM! I FELT SO IN LOVE! And then I felt sad that I couldn’t have this with my baby.Continue reading “Pure Joy”

Are You Going to Have Any More?

Are You Going to Have Any More? My stomach was suddenly in knots. My brain started swirling through all of the horrible things we had been through just to get one. I was just bragging about my perfect 2 year old toddler and showed off her picture. Then she asked so innocently and with loadsContinue reading “Are You Going to Have Any More?”

This is Your Brain When Trying to Conceive

This is Your Brain When Trying to Conceive….It is such an extreme mind fuck. Anyone else feel like your brain was constantly running in overdrive when trying to conceive? This was me multiplied by 10 years plus. Talk about living with depression. It was this extreme torture every single month when it just didn’t happen.Continue reading “This is Your Brain When Trying to Conceive”

Ovarian Stimulation Phase

Ovarian Stimulation Phase… What a strange feeling this was. Everyone talks about the injections and being scared of the needles. I had NO PROBLEMS AT ALL with this. I did most of the shots myself while my husband stood by my side. I liked being in control and knowing exactly when I would feel theContinue reading “Ovarian Stimulation Phase”

What to Expect During IVF

What to Expect During IVF…. Overwhelming much?! You can read more about our first official office visit here. It was IVF time! I so clearly remember hearing everything the nurse was saying, but then panicking…it went right in one ear and out of the other. I remember nodding my head and saying “yes, ok, uhContinue reading “What to Expect During IVF”

Find Your Escape, Find Your Distraction

Find Your Escape, Find Your Distraction… It’s easy to get wrapped up in the negativity of all things IVF. It’s easy to think that the universe is against you in every way. For me, it seemed like it was one bad thing after another. We were on this insane emotional rollercoaster. We couldn’t catch aContinue reading “Find Your Escape, Find Your Distraction”