IVF?WTF!

I’ve Heard It All

I’ve Heard It All…. AND MORE! I could keep adding and adding, but I think you get the picture. It is NOT OK to say these things to someone who does not have a child. It is NOT OK to ask these questions. It doesn’t matter if someone you know just got married, or hadContinue reading “I’ve Heard It All”

I Know Someone Who…

I Know Someone Who…. I can’t even tell you how many times during our IVF Journey I’ve heard people tell me that their friend of a friend of a friend who tried to get pregnant for a few months went on vacation….. and then they came home and found out they were pregnant! WOW! It’sContinue reading “I Know Someone Who…”

Searching All Night

Anyone else? I would search and search all night long trying to find other IVF stories. I wanted to know it all. Did it work? How did it feel? What is going to happen to me next? I needed more information. There wasn’t enough out there, so I started my IVF Journey Blog, titled, “IVF?WTF!”Continue reading “Searching All Night”

The Money Question

How do you even begin to wrap your head around the outstanding costs associated with IVF? That extreme overwhelming feeling that there is no way in hell you can possibly ever afford to have a baby is intense. It took us 10 years to decide whether or not to jump in. I am SO GLADContinue reading “The Money Question”

Postpartum Depression

*I’m writing this 8 months after my daughter was born. Postpartum Depression. It happened. Is this a nightmare? How could this be? I’ve waited for over 10 years for my sweet baby! I had this MENTAL MISFIRE. I couldn’t function. Everything was a blur. I cried and cried for no reason. Here I was, FINALLYContinue reading “Postpartum Depression”

Gestational Diabetes

Well, I failed the 3 hr. glucose test. FAILED. I HATE that word. It makes me feel so terrible, like I’ve done something horrible. Couldn’t they eliminate that word? I already felt like shit for having Gestational Diabetes. Way to make it worse. I was so upset to get this news. What did this meanContinue reading “Gestational Diabetes”

Every Time I Wipe

Every single time I wipe, I have to look. I am terrified to find blood, I am terrified to lose this baby. I started writing this months ago, Nothing has changed. I’m 32 weeks pregnant, I still look every single time. We have a healthy singleton, But think about the twin we lost EVERY SINGLEContinue reading “Every Time I Wipe”

1 Heartbeat

We are devastated. We went in for our 8 week OB appointment and found out that we lost one of the twins. I feel so so alone. I am so extremely sad, but also glad that our other little one is doing OK for now. During our OB visit, she grabbed the hand-held sonogram machineContinue reading “1 Heartbeat”

The 5 Week Scare

**I am currently 14 weeks with a singleton** As many of you know, I had a miscarriage last year. It was devastating and I still think about it every single day. I woke up on Monday morning at 4am with blood on the sheets. I ran to the bathroom and started bawling my eyes out.Continue reading “The 5 Week Scare”

Our WTF Appointment

I’ve heard this online, but never really looked it up. The WTF appointment is just what is sounds like: What the fuck happened? Why didn’t the transfer work? What did I do wrong? What’s next? We now found ourselves having to schedule it. Luckily, we didn’t have to wait very long, just a few weeks.Continue reading “Our WTF Appointment”

The Lupron Shot

After having to cancel 3 FET transfers, my doctor thought it would be best to try a 1 month round of Lupron. Every time I started the vaginal Estradiol estrogen pills, plus 3 patches of estrogen every other day, I would get my raging period within 2 weeks. My uterine lining would not thicken andContinue reading “The Lupron Shot”

Cancelled FETs x 3

I am so so frustrated. Here’s what’s been happening: School was ending and it was the PERFECT time for a FET. Finally after waiting so long after my Laparoscopic Myomectomy, it was time. I would have no stresses and I could just relax for a few months before going back to work. I was putContinue reading “Cancelled FETs x 3”

I Got Fucking SHINGLES

SHINGLES. WHAT THE FUUUUUCK. A couple of months after my laparoscopic myomectomy, I started to feel “rashy”. I don’t know how else to explain it. I had this really gross cluster of small blisters between my right fingers. I thought it was just eczema at first or maybe some sort of athletes foot fungus onContinue reading “I Got Fucking SHINGLES”

The Miscarriage

Traumatic. I still cannot believe this happened to us. It is so so hard to write about this, but I know that sharing my story will help break the silence. I am not alone. We are not alone. But I still feel so alone. Millions of women have miscarriages. No one talks about it. IContinue reading “The Miscarriage”

Genetic Testing

We decided to send our frozen embryos out for Pre-Implantation Genetic Screening (PGS) in order to improve our success rates. Boy, was I glad. I didn’t know this when we decided to have this done, but I needed the time to recover. There was no way that I could have ever done a fresh IVFContinue reading “Genetic Testing”

Our Frozen Embies!

  Throughout the chaos of my Egg Collection and my HORRENDOUS recovery, we found out how many future babies we had developing into embryos! This made the whole experience worth it. The recovery was awful, but the result was amazing. First of all, I had no idea what to expect. I feel like I shouldContinue reading “Our Frozen Embies!”

IVF Time!

Well, here we go! I’m about to dive into our IVF journey. My Reproductive Endocrinologist is awesome. Before we started IVF, she thoroughly explained everything about what was going to happen with us. She even showed us an in-depth Powerpoint presentation. I need visuals and I felt better about the whole process. The office visit:Continue reading “IVF Time!”

IVF? WTF!

Here I am, starting this blog on our 12th wedding anniversary. I’m 34 years old. We didn’t seek out IVF (In Vitro Fertilization) until last year. I’d like to share my experiences with IVF and FETs (Frozen Embryo Transfer). I would search for hours and hours typing questions in Google in hopes of finding someoneContinue reading “IVF? WTF!”


Follow My Blog

Get new content delivered directly to your inbox.